I honestly can’t remember my depression being as bad as it is right now. My mind is trying to think of a time when it’s been like this so I can have some proof it’s just a passing episode but it seems with each year my depression worsens. I don’t know what I’m going to do. Well I have one plan I’ve been thinking about lately but I don’t know if it would really work. I have been wonder since I get stressed so easily and have heart issues and high blood pressure, if I could stress myself into a heart attack. It is a pretty awful feeling though. I just want out of life. Honestly right now I’m considering just harming myself but I’m watching all the animals for my parents at the moment. Sometimes I want to slit my own throat but I would probably regret it as soon as I do it. I feel like I can never breathe. I wonder if that’s what gravitated me towards hanging myself in the past. Now I’ll go sleep and won’t even have any memory of being sad or knowing why I’m sad in the morning; other than if I read this of course. That’s a ptsd perk.
♠Ashe C.-K. E.-A.♠
Nick Name: ACE
Married to: Softmeer ~♥
This androgynous asexual was born in London, England but grew up and resides in Canada. Coming from a mainly European and Asian mix family they enjoy learning new languages and are fluent in French and English. Ashe is a freelance designer, artist and model with a love for cosplay. They have been sewing subculture clothing for twelve years and cosplay costumes for ten. Ashe has sewn over fifty costumes with plans to do more in the near future as well as create their own subculture clothing line. This artist has learned their skills through College but mostly by trial and error always working to the best of their ability. Ashe has a knack for learning anything new weather it’s in or outside their field and is always willing to listen. They are also an advocate for physical and mental health, the environment and over all respect and equality for all.
Emilie Autumn, Gandhi, Koda Kumi, Tyra Banks, Grace Jones, La Carmina, Ellen DeGeneres, Aural Vampire, Matthew Good, and Hiro Mashima are just some of the people that inspire me.
PTSD, Bi-Polar, OCD, Severe Depression, Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Hormone Issues, Chronic Ashtma, Adrenal Fatigue, Fibromyalgia and a Hypothalamus Disorder.
But I'm still awesome and can't use these as an excuse to be rude. ^.^ I send hugs to those going through similar things.
*You can message or comment to me in English, French or Brazilian Portuguese if it is easier for you. (I can only take commission orders in English though.)
*BTW how I look in cosplay is not the real me. I have tons of make up, wigs, contacts, and other effects for the photos. It's not natural. XD Just so you know because I think too many people think cosplay and fashion photos are all natural. Don't believe such lies! D:
My fashion and fun blog:
|-Don't leave a crap tone of links or I will hide your comment.|
-Don't tell me to check out your gallery because if I really want to I'll do it on my own terms.
-Also I'm not a fan of most cosplayers as I find most to be very selfish and snobby. I appreciate your work but don't try to cram it down my throat.
-I rarely do collaborations. No matter how good or well known you are; I have to get to know you on a personal level first. I won't support even the most professional of people if they're an asshole of a human being.